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Dirty Little Secret
01:28
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I told you my dirty little secret
You think it's dirty, you want me to keep it
I told you my dirty little secret
It's not free, I want to release it
Oh yeah
I told you my dirty little secret
I understand why you want me to keep it
But I just can't help feeling the way I'm feeling
I told you my dirty little secret
Oh yeah
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Half In, Half Out
03:24
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Thank you Phil, for testing the waters for me
Reminding me of what my life could have been
I went through all this last year
For me it wasn't a question of fear
Thank you Phil, but I turned down the opportunity
Thank you Phil for showing me what not to do
Although our stories aren't exactly the same, that's true
You were worried you would lose your fame
I just wondered what I had to gain
Thank you Phil you confirmed what I already knew
You were tying up loose ends
I stand to lose a few shit friends
I'm half in, half out
Nobody knows what I'm thinking about
Thank you Phil for testing the waters for me
Although I think it's best that I just leave things be
I guess I'm happy with how good my life is
Well I'm not sure but I think my wife is
Don't wanna look behind that door but we'll see
You were tying up loose ends
I could do with cutting out those friends
I'm half in, half out
Don't wanna know what I'm thinking about
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Bounty
03:37
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You've got an itch
I would scratch in a pinch
A brief respite, momentary delight
Then comes the aftertaste
Where once was joy and excitement
As you opened up
Now comes dread and disgust
I'm not good enough
And I feel like a Bounty
At the bottom of your Celebrations tin
I try to talk about it
I don't know where to begin
You're juggling plates and I know
I'm the bottom of your pile
But all I ever wanted was to make you smile
You get distant, I feel insignificant
Until you throw me a pity bone
Well I can find one of them on my own
That's not the point
These things were made to share
We both wish something else was there
Something to make you care
And I feel like a Bounty
At the bottom of your Celebrations tin
Lately things don't feel the same way
That they've always been
You're juggling plates and I know
I'm the bottom of your pile
But all I ever wanted was to make you smile
I feel like a Bounty
At the bottom of your Celebrations tin
Are we gonna power through it?
Or just throw it in the bin
You're juggling plates and it's right
That I'm the bottom of your pile
But all I ever wanted was to make you smile
All I want is to see you smile
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4. |
When All This Is Over
05:29
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Your world got turned upside down
And you started acting out
I started walking on eggshells
I didn't react well
When this started life was a dream
I saw more of you than I'd ever seen
It was a trial run for my next career
Then I started to see the fear
When all this is over
I won't be as distant
When all this is over
I promise to listen
I let us fall out of our routine
You had your face stuck to a screen
Well I guess you got your cues from me
I should have known you weren't happy
When all this is over
I won't be as distant
When all this is over
I promise to listen
And these four walls weren't meant
To hold a force of nature like you
And a kid like you wasn't meant
To have nothing to do
So I'll tidy up those eggshells
And when this is over you'll give that world hell
When all this is over
I won't be as distant
When all this is over
I promise to listen
When all this is over
We'll find a better way
When all this is over
I hope we'll be okay
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5. |
Playing House
03:13
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It's Christmas time again
I'm putting up the tree
Wondering when it'll fall down on me
And it's killing me
Tired of having too much month left
At the end of the money
I don't have a clue
I'm just muddling through
Cause there's nothing else I can do
It's worse this time of year
We're just playing house
Cause we don't know what we're doing here
I'm getting fed up
Sat in traffic for an hour
Burning fuel just going nowhere and
I feel like a fraud
It's like I'm that guy from Once in a Lifetime
I'm cooking a nice me
My sons goofing around
Such a wonderful sound
It's worse this time of year
We're just playing house
Cause we don't know what we're doing here
It's not as bad as it seems
I'm just wondering when
I'll wake up from this dream
It's just my chemistry
Running through my brain saying
Good things don't happen to me
It's Christmas time again
I'm living in the present
Wondering when it'll all cave in
It's worse this time of year
We're just playing house
Cause we don't know what we're doing here
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feast.soda.level
03:46
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When I was younger I was forced to roam
I had no place that I could call a home
Now what three words could mean home to me now?
What three words could mean home to me now?
All of a sudden
You gave me it all, it all
A feast for the soul
A feast for the soul
You took me in in my own place
I spilt soda, you laughed at my face
Now what three words could mean home to me now?
What three words could mean home to me now?
All of a sudden
We gave it your all, my all
And we did it all
And we did it all
Home, where's my home?
Home, where's my home?
You understand me on every level
We help each other fight off our devils
Now what three words could mean home to me now?
What three words could mean home to me now?
It's not a postcode
And it's not these four walls
It's you, always you
It's always you
Home, where's my home?
Home, where's my home?
Home, where's my home?
Home, you're my home
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White Noise
03:55
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All your life, you've been looking in the mirror
Started to blur now, it isn't clear
The person looking back at you isn't you
Suddenly, you haven't got a clue
Well you're, gammon-faced, ham-fisted
How dare they remind you other people existed?
What about me, like a lost little boy?
Slink away, back to your white noise
You take a minute, try and win back some ground
How could you not have noticed this wall of sound
You care about everyone, it's the least you could do
But still the only person that you're seeing is you
Well you're ham-fisted, gammon-faced
We're knocking down the walls to your safe space
You seem to scared that you've become a minority
Maybe because of how they're treated historically
Well listen here cause the glass is gonna break
We're turning up the heat so don't be a snowflake
You wanna stay in with all the static and fuzz
We'll move on without you we don't give a fuck
Slink away
Creep away
Slink away
Creep away
Fuck off back to your white noise
(all your life, looking in a mirror)
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8. |
Not Okay
04:53
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Something in the back of my mind
It doesn't happen all the time
Feels like, a dam's about to burst
It hurts
So I phoned the doctor, she didn't wanna see me
She said take this pills, go and ask a charity
Run from your problems, go bother somebody else
We got no money for your mental health
Well you can stick your CBT
I just wanna know what's wrong with me
And you can keep your Sertraline
I just wanna talk about how I'm feeling
It's okay not to be okay
It's okay not to be okay
It's okay not to be okay
But I'm not okay and that's not okay
Sleep, when will I get some sleep?
Dreams, why do I get these dreams?
Are you gonna hurt yourself
That's all that we care about
These things happen, it all takes time
We don't do miracles, please hold the line
Well stick your CBT
I just wanna know what's wrong with me
And you can keep your Sertraline
I just wanna talk about how I'm feeling
It's okay not to be okay
It's okay not to be okay
It's okay not to be okay
But I'm not okay and that's not okay
I don't wanna breath slowly
I don't wanna breath slowly
I don't want to count to ten
I don't want your mindfulness
So fuck your CBT
I just wanna know what's wrong with me
And you can keep your Sertraline
I just wanna talk about how I'm feeling
It's okay not to be okay
It's okay not to be okay
It's okay not to be okay
But I'm not okay and that's not okay
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Constellations
04:07
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Lying in the haze
In the morning hue
Quietly steal a gaze over you
Reminiscing over how the hell
We got here
In the blink of an eye
We've travelled light years
Well you're the sun in my sky
The stars racing round my mind
And as I trace the constellations
Down your spine
I wonder why the fates decided on you and I
Well I've had my share of time
With my head in the clouds
And it's always you who brings me back down
But I'm always sky high when I'm with you
When skin touches skin, there's nothing I can do
Well you're the sun in my sky
The stars racing round my mind
And as I trace the constellations
Down your spine
I wonder why the fates decided on you and I
Well you're the sun in my sky
The stars racing round my mind
And as I trace the constellations
Down your spine
I wonder why the fates decided on you and I
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There's a direct link between the ether and your voice
Filter out the noise, filter out the noise
I'm caught between two tides, wish I had a choice
Direct link between the ether and your voice
The river has burst its banks
Flood of words without meaning
It's a task without any thanks
I don't see the water receding
The stream of consciousness
Will overflow
Wondering when you'll come up for air
What's like down there, what's it like down there?
You send a barrage, all I do is stare
Wondering if you'll come up for air
The river has burst its banks
Flood of words without meaning
It's a task without any thanks
I don't see the water receding
The stream of consciousness
Will overflow
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11. |
Doomsday Prepping
03:24
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Ooh I feel the big give up coming on
Things are picking up, I'm stretched too thin
It won't be long
Ambition creeps in, aspiration spreads like a mould
I tell myself that I can do this
But I'm waiting to fold
I'm terrified of failure
I hate being wrong
But worse is marching back
From a place I thought I belonged
But I should let the good things happen
I should let the good times roll
I'm so busy doomsday prepping
I forget what I'm surviving for
Told myself I didn't need anything to be happy
Higher I'd aim, the further I'd fall it made sense to me
And if I wasn't already good at it, it wasn't worth the time
If I had nothing to lose, I'd be just fine
I'm terrified of failure
I need to be right
My tendency to think ahead
Keeps me up at night
But I should let the good things happen
I should let the good times roll
I'm so busy doomsday prepping
I forget what I'm surviving for
So I'll cancel those plans
I won't buy those things
I'll resist any sense of opportunity
Cancel those plans
I won't buy those things
Self-care isn't in my vocabulary
I'm terrified of failure
I admit defeat
It wasn't meant to be
Situation got the best of me
But I should let the good things happen
I should let the good times roll
I'm so busy doomsday prepping
I forget what I'm surviving for
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RABB England, UK
I am a singer-songwriter based in Hampshire attempting to challenge perceptions of what original ukulele music can
be.
My approach to songwriting is simple. I write about things that have happened to me or are important to me, and the songs need to sound just as good with just me and my uke or fully arranged on a studio album.
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